Monday, November 22, 2004
Why is it that people close to us cannot seem to understand that we sometimes get tired putting other people's needs first before ours? Almost all my life, I have been thinking of what other people need, what would they think, how would they react. And I am getting tired of it all. I am at a point where I am nearing the boiling point. I don't want to think what might happen then but knowing me, I don't think I am brave enough to say something about it. I envy people out there who are brave and honest enough to fight back; to get up and say "that's it! I'm through". I don't know how to fight this kind of battle and even if I did, I don't know if I have it in me to fight back.
I look back and think, what did I do wrong? I honestly do not know. I think in my journey thru life, I lost something of my self - the me who was independent and brave. I do not know if I will ever get it back or how. But I am on my way....
Posted by nikki:: 11/22/2004 10:25:00 AM