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Friday, April 29, 2005

missing you...

di ko alam kung papaano ipapaliwanag o kung san ako mag-uumpisa
basta ang alam ko...

gusto ko laging nadidinig ang boses mo
kapag tinatawag mo ako o kapag nagkukwento ka

gusto ko ako ang nag-aasikaso sa'yo,
yung pagkain mo, yung mga gamit mo pati na mga gamot mo

gusto ko palagi kang masaya,
walang problema at di kumukunot ang noo

gusto ko lagi kitang pinapanood,
kapag natutulog ka o di kaya'y may ginagawa

gusto ko laging nakikita ang iyong mga mata,
kapag may sinasabi ka sa akin o kapag nagkakatitigan tayo

ewan, di ko maintindihan.... di ko alam,
basta ang alam ko.... miss kita!

Posted by nikki:: 4/29/2005 08:42:00 PM



Sunday, April 24, 2005

i have been very nostalgic for the past few weeks. i don't know what brought on the nostalgia and i don't think it is a good thing because i sometimes end up so glum. i guess i just really miss some things or is it the result of having too much free time on my hands?

we have also been eagerly awaiting the birth (in about 4 months, God willing) of the very 1st 3rd generation member of our family... my brother's child. it is proving to be a very long road for us because my sister-in-law is going thru a rough pregnancy - all the morning sickness, endless examinations because of infections, the ever illusive fetal heart tone and to top it all, the baby is breech at the moment. i am taking this all in stride but the baby has never been so real to me until we started buying baby clothes. it was fun! the shirts are so small! i don't think we'll ever buy enough baby clothes! yeah, i know it's not practical to buy a lot because babies (and all children for that matter) grow out of these clothes faster than you can blink. it helps too that i am knowledgable in the baby department because my brother and sister-in-law are both clueless. i just hope we can be good examples for him so that he will grow up to be a God-fearing, well balanced person.

Posted by nikki:: 4/24/2005 08:30:00 PM



Wednesday, April 20, 2005

We have a new pope!

the college of cardinals, composed of 115 cardinals from all over the world have elected a new pope! our new pope who will go by the name Pope Benedict XVI is the 78 year old dean of the college of cardinals, a cardinal from germany and is a close associate of the late Pope John Paul II is none other than Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger.

long live the new pope!

Posted by nikki:: 4/20/2005 12:56:00 AM



Tuesday, April 19, 2005

short course no. 2

after html, im now learning excel. this is because dad asked me to computerize his records and being the obedient daughter (yeah right!) that i am, i bought a show me! book on excel and started making a worksheet. lo & behold, i was able to finish a template in 8 hours. it is still for the boss' approval though.

once again, i am so fascinated by what microsoft and computers in general can do. seems like everything is possible with computers. of course, human input is still needed so i don't think computers can replace humans in the future.

hmmm...... i wonder what should i learn next.

Posted by nikki:: 4/19/2005 04:04:00 PM



Sunday, April 17, 2005


finally! after countless hours of slaving with the computer so that i can learn html to improve my blog, here is something i can be proud of. its not overly complicated and it may not be the most high-tech blog you'll ever find on the www but i did it all by myself (of course w/ the help of several people whose websites i have found to be very useful w/c i will mention later). it was trial and error all the way. frustrating, yes but once you get it the way you want it to look, you'll be one very satisfied customer! :-))

worth mentioning are the following:

1. Dave's Site (basic, easily understood html tutorial)
2. Writing HTML Tutorial by MCLI
3. - for this beautiful template contributed by waniac
4. NVNCBL Chat - for the tagboard

quote for the day:
"persons are single-winged angels who need other people in order to fly"

(i didn't quite get the name of the intelligent person who said this but whoever you are, what you said is very true!)

moral of the story:
you can do anything you want as long as your heart and mind is into it!

Posted by nikki:: 4/17/2005 05:15:00 PM



Wednesday, April 13, 2005

When a girl is quiet,
Millions of things are running on her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "i am fine" in a few seconds,
She is not fine at all.

When a girl stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a girl lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a girl sms' you everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a girl says "I LOVE YOU",
She means it.

When a girl says she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says "i can't live without you",
No one in this world can miss you more than her....

(copied from a friend's email)

Posted by nikki:: 4/13/2005 11:17:00 PM



Monday, April 11, 2005

I Don't Want to be your Friend

I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thing
Just stay away baby
Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear that you'll stay in touch maybe
I'll get just fine
So if you're goin' then darlin' goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
And I don't think I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't want to be your friend

I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'cause all I want to be is just free of you baby
Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Go now, go now
Don't call me in the middle of the night...

You take it casually, and that's what's killing me
I'll get by just fine
So if you're goin' then darlin' goodbye, goodbye
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
No, no baby
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
I don't want to be your friend
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
I don't want to be your friend...

-sung by: Nina

I had a chance to join an online forum a month ago and the topic was “can you really be friends w/ an ex?” You can just believe the number of responses that the forum got. Having gone thru the same dilemma myself, I guess the answer would be – yes & no:

Scenario #1: you have been w/ this guy since high school, now you are both working and suddenly you both realize that there is more to life than each other so you decide to give each other space.
Yes, you can be friends.

Scenario #2: everything was going smoothly (or so you thought) when suddenly your bf says “I need to concentrate on my review, I have subspecialty exams coming real soon”; then you say “Huh? I don’t think I have been distracting him from his review.” Although very painful, you let him go only to find out after a month that he has been courting your good friend behind your back and that they have been going steady for almost 2 months now.
DEFINITELY NO! You cannot be friends w/ your ex! Who does he think he is??? The jerk!!!

Scenario #3: from the very beginning, you know that your relationship will never work – too many people will just get hurt. But….

a. you really love each other, still you both decide to let go because there is no other
choice – when the hurt & unfairness of it all is gone, yes, you can be friends
b. you really love him, but you later found out that he just used you –
I really admire the people who will say “yes, we can be friends” when in this
situation; I guess it only means that maybe they really love the other person so
much. As for me, MAYBE, when all the wounds have healed.

Scenario #4: it all started on the internet… you exchange the stories of your lives, send pictures and gifts to each other, talk on the phone everyday, you are so overwhelmed by the feelings that you have for him and he’s too good to be true! You promise to be friends forever whatever happens. Then he surprises you with a visit, after meeting each other, he decides that he doesn’t want you.
Can we really be friends? A promise is a promise but as somebody recently pointed it out to me… they are “pro MISSES”. I guess it is easier said than done. MAYBE in time….

So you see, the answer to the question would really depend on the situation. I can still think of other scenarios but if I enumerate it one by one, I will never finish this. But it all boils down to one thing…. no matter how hard you try, you can never be friends with an ex after a recent break-up. You cannot just turn off your feelings like a switch. It would just be awkward for both parties because you both do not want to “step beyond the line”. It would be hard not to act as “the gf/bf”, it would be hard to show you do not care when deep inside you do care a lot. Do not expect things to be easy. One day, when you can look back at your failed relationship and remember only the good times, then you can be friends. In the meantime, let the wounds heal first.

Posted by nikki:: 4/11/2005 02:48:00 PM