Thursday, June 30, 2005isang pagbati
bahala na kung lalabas na ka-plastikan o sabihing "exaggerated" kasi hindi ko naman siya talaga nakikilala pa ng personal pero naisip ko, gusto ko siyang parangalan...
september 2004 nang ako ay natutong mag-blog. noong una, personal webpage ang pinakialaman ko pero ang hirap kasing i-maintain. at sa aking walang sawang pag iikot sa world wide web, nabasa ko ang blogging sa inq7.net at doon ko na din natunton ang blogspot. noong una, nag-aalangan pa akong mag-blog kasi pakiramdam ko, nahuhubaran ako ng unti-unti sa blog ko, madalang lang kasi ang gaya ko na nakakagawa pa ng ganito sa dami ng mga pinagkaka-abalahan namin. yung iba naman, iniisip nila na pag-aaksaya lang ito ng panahon. hindi din ako noon palaging nag-uupdate ng blog at alam kong hindi din ako magaling magsulat pero hindi naman masamang mangarap at sumubok di ba? gaya nga ng dati kong sinasabi, mas gumagaan ang pakiramdam ko kapag naisusulat ko ang mga nasa isip ko. minsan kasi may mga bagay na ang hirap sabihin kahit sa bestfriend mo o sa mga magulang mo. personal na diary ko lang talaga dapat ito pero dahil nga may mga pagkakataon na naisusulat ko ang mga saloobin ko tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay, naisip kong ibahagi na din ito sa aking mga kaibigan. pero nalungkot ako kasi mukhang hindi nila binabasa o kung basahin man nila, dead ma or in our terms, NR (no reaction). naisip ko noong tumigil na sa pagsusulat dito hanggang sa isang araw noong april, napadpad ako sa pinoyblogger.com at doon, tumalon-talon na ako sa iba't-ibang mga blogs. doon ko siya nakilala...
isa siyang pinay na guro sa ibang bansa, sumubok mamuhay dito sa pilipinas (at kahanga-hanga ang mga naging karanasan niya dito) pero piniling umalis para sa pamilya at doon, unti-unting nakikilala dahil sa kanyang kahusayan sa pagtuturo ng mga special children. noong una, sisilip-silip lamang ako sa kanyang blog, nabasa ko na din ang kanyang buong kwento, hanggang sa hindi na nakukumpleto ang araw ko kapag hindi ko siya nadadaanan. sa madaling salita, ako ay isang "lurker" lamang noon. minsan kasi, hindi mo alam kung ano ang reception na makukuha mo kaya nakakatakot sumali sa usapan saka parang isa na silang malaking pamilyang nagpapalitan ng mga kuro-kuro, pakiramdam ko, intruder ako. kaya lang, mukhang mabait siya kaya isang araw nagkalakas loob akong mag-iwan ng comment sa blog niya. hindi ako nabigo kasi mabait pala talaga siya. ipinadama niya sa akin na welcome ako at malayang makakapag-iwan ng mensahe sa blog niya. sa pagbabasa ng mga blogs niya, mas lumawak ang aking isip, nagkakaroon ako ng inspirasyon at nabubuhayan ng loob na sa kabila ng mga kasamaan at hindi magagandang nangyayari sa mundo at sa ating bansa, may mga tao pa palang katulad niya na good-hearted. dahil sa kanya na-engganyo akong muling mag-blog kasi nag-iiwan siya ng mga comments at sa kanyang mga comments katulad ng kanyang blog, napag-iisip niya ako. dahil sa kanya, mas nagising ako sa mga nangyayari sa paligid ko. dahil din sa kanya, may mga nakilala pa akong ibang espesyal na tao na nakakapagpatawa at tumutulong na magpalawak pa ng aking isipan. siya ang aking unang naging kaibigan sa blogsphere...
kaya sa kanyang kaarawan, nais ko siyang batiin...happy birthday, teachersol! God bless u!
Posted by nikki:: 6/30/2005 01:39:00 AM
Monday, June 27, 2005i'm sorry
for the past week, filipinos has been at a loss at what is the truth behind the allegedly wiretapped conversations of President Arroyo. for the past week, except for statements from her press secretary, the president finally broke her silence...
she said it was a "lapse in judgement" and that she was "sorry". she also said that we should close this chapter and move forward.
hmmm... tatanggapin na lang ba natin ang sorry na ito?
Posted by nikki:: 6/27/2005 07:44:00 PM
Sunday, June 26, 2005a promise of love
to see the parts of me that no one else has ever seen before and tell me how beautiful i am so that i can see it too.
to kiss away the teardrops that never should have been.
to hear the things i can't always say and listen when i don't have the words.
to hold me close to you and make up for all the times that i should have been held.
with your heart and soul, you promised to love me just as i was meant to be loved.
but wait... i think the wind just blew those promises away!
Posted by nikki:: 6/26/2005 12:00:00 AM
Friday, June 24, 2005dreams
i come from a family of OFWs. until several years ago, my father was also an OFW. a couple of uncles, aunts and cousins are all OFWs. when i was little, i didn't understand why when i was just beginning to get used to having my dad around, he leaves us again. i realized later that it is because my dad wanted us to live comfortably. lately, i have been exchanging emails with an uncle abroad and he said "i need to work here so that your cousins can go to school and have a better life".
but what is a better life? does it mean eating six meals a day, sending your kids to an exclusive private school, buying all colors of the latest chuck taylor, owning the latest car model or the latest nokia phone? OR does it mean putting nutricious food on the table three times a day, sending your son back to school after stopping for 2 years or having enough money to ride a taxi going home from work? OR does it mean leaving behind a country teeming with crime and corruption? OR does it mean being given the chance to be the best you can be?
if we really think about it, wanting a better life really means achieving all our dreams. no matter how small or big those dreams are, it is there to be our wings so we can soar high. sometimes though we get blinded by the wrong dreams making us miserable. hence we should also ask ourselves, would wanting a better life also give meaning to my existence?
Posted by nikki:: 6/24/2005 03:20:00 AM
Saturday, June 18, 2005for papa
your heart was breaking as you waved goodbye,
but you didn't even think twice about going.
you didn't want us to suffer that is why.
your hands were so gentle as you touched my hair
and you hugged me tightly as i cried.
you didn't even say "i told you so"
when you had all the right to say it.
all you said was "darling, don't cry there will always
be a next time".
you couldn't afford it then but you still gave me the
you didn't even think twice,
because all you wanted was to see my eyes dry.
for all your sacrifices, i again thank you.
there will be no other just like you!
i didn't grow up with my papa around because he was working abroad then. we would only see each other once or twice a year but my brother & i never felt alienated from him because he made sure that he was always in sync w/ what's going on in our lives. we wrote each other 2 sometimes even 4 page letters almost every week. he always makes it a point to call us at least once a month which was very hard for us then because we didn't have a telephone (our phone application took more than 10 years!) so we would make "dates" with him and all 3 of us would troop to a neighbor's house and wait for his call. everytime he comes for a vacation, he would always make up for lost time. we would get lots of toys and gifts. he would pick us up from school and stay at the house most of the time.
when he became boss, we would spend our summers with him. i always looked forward to going there. every sunday after hearing mass, we would go to the mall to eat then later to shop. my brother and i never went home empty handed. we only had to point to what we wanted and most of the time, he would buy it for us. after work, he would always hurry home so we could watch tv together. sometimes he would even bring us to his office and would always show us off to his co-workers. i remember the first time we traveled without him, we were so surprised to see him walking thru the waiting lounge towards us. he didn't want us to travel alone so he decided to meet us at our lay over. once he was sent to a meeting to another country, he brought us w/ him & even made it a tour for all of us. it was the most memorable summer i ever had.
as i grew older, i started to miss him more. everytime he leaves, we would always say goodbye to him at home and he would go to the airport by himself. i would always cry after his taxi disappears from view. i never told him that but i knew he was aware of it.
he called me "my mature young lady" in his letters because according to him, even at a very young age, i was a go-getter. he trained us to be independent and encouraged us to do our best. he was never strict w/ us, he just always reminded us to be responsible for all our actions. he is one of our bestfriends, always ready and eager to listen to all our problems and stories. he knew almost all my friends, driving us to night outs and then picking us up later. he was and still is supportive of all that we want to do.
don't get me wrong, my papa is not perfect. he made some not so good decisions in the past and we almost lost everything but he never gave up. when everybody was whispering behind our backs, he closed his ears to them and worked hard to bring us back on our toes again. eventhough it was hard for him to leave us once more, he decided to go because he wants us to have the best. he wrote poems for me to pass the time and i knew he was lonely there. yes, those were very hard times for us even when he eventually came back but we were happy. it made us closer to each other and i would always thank the Lord for that.
having been trained to have a mind of our own and to speak out, when my brother and i became adults, we would sometimes end up arguing. you can never win an argument with papa but that is just how he is. up to now, even after sending us to medical school and law school, he still works hard for us, always thinking of our comfort and the comfort of the people working for him. i cannot imagine what my life will be like without him by my side. he is my strength and the wind beneath my other wing.
so this father's day, i would like to thank him for not giving up. papa, thank you for helping make me become what i am today. i hope you're as proud of me as i am of you. i know i haven't been the perfect daughter and if ever i disappointed you, i'm so sorry. i hope you know that i love you very, very much.
happy father's day!
Posted by nikki:: 6/18/2005 11:00:00 PM
gary and gabriel
do you know what can happen if you put 7 strong willed and very opinionated women in one room? they all end up in a huge argument! that's what happenned to us yesterday, all because we were so excited to watch GARY V! but all's well that ends well.
what's the big deal anyways? hello?? we have free admission to a GARY V show, that's the big deal! i initially thought the stars were against us because going to greenhills was a challege. traffic was unbearable, it being a friday. i had to make 3 U turns, went to a one-way street and practically went into a joyride for almost 2 hours. we even skipped several dishes of a sumptuous lauriat prepared for us just so we can get the best seats at music museum. the whole place was so jampacked!
we had so much fun! gary is really a very good performer, you can't help but dance in your seats and clap your hands to the beat. it was a celebration for his 22 years in showbiz so he sang many of his previously recorded songs in "snippets" was his term. in between his songs, he talked of his experiences and shared his faith to us. his son, gabriel (who looks very much like him) even gave in to his dad's request to dance with him onstage and boy, they really are a pair! a few rows infront of us was gary's wife, angeli and the whole time gary and gabriel was dancing, she was proudly smiling and applauding them. the audience sang along with him in almost every song, he even stopped singing and signalled to his band at one point to stop playing so we can sing a few bars. throughout the show, he gamely came down the stage to pose for pictures and shake hands with his audience, some even had a chance to kiss him. he also cracked jokes here and there. before singing his last song for the night, some were shouting song titles to him and we heard loud and clear a shout that said "be my lady". oh man! he was a very good sport about it and sang the song impromtu. his last song "how did you know", meant a lot to our group who watched his show last night, the same is true with "i will be here". personally, "the warrior is a child" and "take me out of the dark" are favorites. before going to the show, we thought by hook or by crook, we are going to watch gary v. he and his band didn't disappoint us last night because the show was a success.
the show lasted for 3 hours, quite long compared to other shows i have seen but it was worth it! now i know why gary lasted for 22 years (and still going)... it is because he is a very humble person. watching him, you can feel his sincerity and his wanting to reach out to his audience. what touched me last night was when he thanked us doctors because he said that being a diabetic, he owed his good health to his doctors. it was a very memorable night and i know that people who were non-gary v fans last night went home gary v fan converts with a smile in their hearts.
thanks to uap for giving us the chance to watch such a great show!
Posted by nikki:: 6/18/2005 11:29:00 AM
Tuesday, June 14, 2005bagong bayani
while bloghopping a few days ago, i came across teachersol's blog talking about the new filipina. then again today, i read a touching post by another filipina in florida. and it got me thinking...
yes, it is sad that when you do a google search (i actually tried this) for "filipina", results would lead you to dating sites, etc. hence filipinas are almost always associated with mail order brides or as domestic helpers. but did we ever consider why this happened? ask any filipino going abroad why they leave the country and chances are, you will get the same answers - they want a better life for themselves and their families. can we blame them for wanting this? can we blame them if they think that going abroad to be domestics or mail order brides is the only way they can do this? not everyone though goes abroad to be domestics or mail order brides, there are also professionals who go abroad (who actually are doing a good job at making a name for themselves) to have a better life.
did we ever consider why filipinas are famous for being mail order brides or domestics? there are other nationalities abroad who also work as domestics or who become mail order brides, why aren't they known for this? maybe because there is something in the filipina that these foreigners like that is why we are very much in demand. maybe it is because filipinas work harder than those other women or maybe because filipinas are good wives. shouldn't we be proud of this?
i am not looking down on these women, in fact, i am even proud of them. they are doing a great sacrifice for their families so they should be admired for this. there is nothing wrong in being known for this but i think that we also owe it to ourselves to let the whole world know that we filipinas are not only good domestic helpers or wives. we owe it to ourselves to let the world know that we are good and hardworking teachers, nurses or engineers.
Posted by nikki:: 6/14/2005 03:07:00 PM
Sunday, June 12, 2005plastic bag for sale
i needed some things for the clinic so my sister-in-law yesterday suggested that we go to this wholesale store near our house. so after hearing mass this morning, brother, sis-in-law, mom & i excitedly trooped to the place. entering the gates for the first time, the lack of activity was quite unnerving. since we thought it was a members only store, brother inquired first at the customer service counter (although sis-in-law had a temporary membership card), after waiting patiently for almost 10 minutes and noting that they honor credit cards, the lady said our card is valid only at their other branch but we can still go in & shop. hence, we happily strolled to the entrance only to be stopped by a lady guard because according to her, no bags were allowed inside (as if kasya naman ang 10 packs of chippy sa loob ng shoulder bag ko noh!!!). its good mom brought a big purse otherwise, i would be shopping w/ my wallet on the other hand & my cellphone on the other. items there were cheaper by a hundred or two compared to my favorite neighborhood mall, i'm just not sure about the quality. for 2 hours, we browsed thru the store. we had to wait for 15 minutes to get the chair i wanted because there wasn't enough sales people around. we did see some shoppers but not as many as we were expecting from a wholesale store w/ supposedly low prices. after getting all the things we needed, we went to the counter. wow, maiksi lang ang pila! "maam, *** at *****bank credit cards lang po ang tinatanggap namin", the cashier told me when i gave her my credit card. OMGosh! pano na? we usually shop using our credit cards kasi we don't like walking around a store w/ lots of people tapos may pera kami sa pocket or bag. the visa logo of a bank's credit card was prominently displayed at the customer service counter kaya we assumed that ALL cards basta visa, pwede. buti na lang, after pooling our money, we had enough to pay for our purchases. tapos wala pang tag price yung isa naming purchase, since there wasn't enough personnel, my brother had to go back w/ the cashier to the row where we got the item para lang makita yung price (of course the lady will not take our word that it costs P999). after completing the transaction, the cashier proceeded to serve the next customer in line w/o even a "thank you" to us her previous customers. we bought several small items too so my sis-in-law asked the cashier for a plastic bag (they didn't have baggers so the customers themselves do the bagging) only to be told that "may bayad po ang bag, P5." WHAT???!!! utang ng loob naman! they didn't have any bagger na nga to help us, we even have to buy the bags for our purchases? so we just dumped everything to our cart & left the store. but i was fuming mad, i couldn't just leave w/o giving them a piece of my mind! balik customer service ako & i filled out a feedback form. syempre puro 1 ang rating ko! but i doubt if my feedback will reach the management kasi i'm sure, itinapon lang yon nung bruhang nasa counter. grrrrr!
we have been to many shopping malls & warehouse clubs abroad but we have never experienced such things. their clubs are also self-service clubs kaya lang you'll not have a hard time getting what you want kasi the items are not 20 feet above the ground (sana kung may hagdanan ako na lang kumuha ng stock). we have visited other warehouse clubs here in manila too but this is the first time that we were told to pay for the bag for our purchases. i contributed to their sales na nga today tapos i have to pay for that plastic bag pa? bakit, gawa ba sa ginto yung bag nila? if we were asking for an extra bag then they can ask us to pay for it. pano na yung mga bumibili na walang sasakyan? they have no choice but to pay for the bags para madala nila yung mga pinamili nila. grabe talaga! i will never ever go back there again! i won't be recommending them to my friends either. now i know why i didn't see cars trying to out-maneuver each other towards the parking lot & why there were numerous parking spaces available...
Posted by nikki:: 6/12/2005 11:33:00 PM
Friday, June 10, 2005Mama Mary, pray for us
filipinos today were again shocked when another person surfaced telling us that our president is a "fake". this coming out even when the jueteng hearing is still going on. speculations are strong that a coup is inevitable. i tried to close my ears to everything that has been going on but i couldn't anymore, not when the situation is getting worse. i do not know what will happen in the coming days. all i know is that we need to pray hard for peace in our country.
Posted by nikki:: 6/10/2005 06:40:00 PM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005your asl please
in just two straight days, i added almost 20 people in my ignore list in my yahoo messenger. and twice, i did it angrily. i don't really chat nowadays because i spend
most of my time either blogging, blog hopping or researching. i just talk to people i know or people who sends me private messages. if ever i do join a chatroom, i only enter so that my internet connection would have an activity while i am reading something. the other day, while reading teachersol's latest entry, i received a pm
from an educated 34 year old man from europe requesting for a chat. at first he sounded really interesting because he talked with so much sense not until he asked me where i was from. after learning that i was from the philippines, he asked how i looked and what my bra size was. grrrrrr!!!! he interrupted me from a very mind stimulating activity just to find out later that he was an a**?! ignore ko nga!
then today, it was a pinoy working in africa. he pmed me the other day too requesting to chat; since he was a kababayan in a far away country, after chatting for some 10 minutes about the latest news from home, i granted his request to be on my list. when i went online earlier, he said hello then started asking me if i was
in a cafe, who i was living with, where my computer was and if i was alone. hmmm... sounds fishy di ba? so i immediately cut him off and asked if our conversation was leading somewhere. deny to death pa ang lolo mo, asking lang daw sya. and that ticked me off! hello? hindi naman po ako tanga ano! and i told him so but did it nicely (my parents taught me to respect my elders - the hudas is 40 years old according to him). he apologized after that but sorry, he's just another name now on my ignore list.
i was introduced to the internet by my brother in 1998. during that time, i wasn't much into web surfing. i didn't even know that google existed. i spent most of my
time chatting online. however, i didn't really participate in chatroom discussions even if the topic interested me. i just chatted with the people who sent me private messeges. sometimes if an id interested me, i would muster enough courage and be the first to say hello privately. i met a lot of people thru chat although its sad that i lost touch with them already. back then, cybersex was already rampant but you can still find lots of people who you can talk to with sense online. i stayed away from the internet when i was reviewing for the medical boards then i came back months later but i became busy with residency training after that so i went online only to check my emails. in just a few years, the internet changed a lot.
today, the hopes of talking to people with sense online is nil. almost everyone wants to engage in cyber flirting & cybering (cyber sex as it is now called). people almost always talk about mundane things. fighting and cursing inside chat rooms is an ordinary occurrence. when you talk about socially relevant things, chances are, you will be left online. i am aware that you can be anybody online and that what you do online is no one else's business but yours. it just makes me sad that almost everybody now uses the internet not to add to their knowledge but to cheat, lie and pester people. i long for the time when going online meant meeting new people and learning about a different culture. i guess this is the price that we have to pay as technology advances. i just wish that we can be responsible enough not to abuse it.
Posted by nikki:: 6/07/2005 12:41:00 AM
Monday, June 06, 2005time out muna!
i found this game at teacher sol's classrom and i gamely joined the fun...
Here are The Official Interview Game Rules:
-If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying "INTERVIEW ME."
-I will respond by asking you five questions - each person’s will be different.
-You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
-You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
-When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
**if you do not have a blog or is simply too shy, you can post your answers here or you can just email it to be but don't forget to leave your email address.
below is the quiz teacher sol gave me:
1. Who is the princess Walt Disney character that you could identify with? Why?
i would say cinderella. she is a good person, never losing hope inspite of all her problems and in the end, she was greatly rewarded kasi all her dreams came true.
2. How do you feel when you read or hear a melancholic poetry? What memory does it bring back to your senses?
i am a very sentimental person as u can see in some of my posts kaya i get melancholic too. it reminds me that no matter how big or small my problems are, everybody goes thru these times at some point in their lives.
3. Do you believe in ghosts? Why?
yes because i have seen one. but that was a long time ago & it was scary. im glad lumipat na kami ng house!
4. Would you rather be a star or a planet? Why?
a star... i may be a small speck in the sky but anybody can just look up & see me there. it would also give me a chance to watch over all the people who matter the most in my life.
5. What are the 3 most important ways that we can protect life on earth?
for me, the only way thay we can do this is to be God-fearing persons. God created life so if we fear God, we will respect His creations.
don't worry, no consultation fee will be charged! God bless everyone!
Posted by nikki:: 6/06/2005 05:42:00 PM
Saturday, June 04, 2005the journey 2
during this time, there will be no sitting down for hours listening to your professor talk to the blackboard. you will be assigned to different hospitals in different departments - internal medicine (adults), surgery, pediatrics and obstetrics & gynecology to go on 24 hour duty every few days. at since ikaw ang pinaka "lowest animal" sa hierarchy ng buong hospital, ikaw ang dakilang utusan. be prepared na magka-kalyo ang iyong kamay sa kakasulat ng paulit-ulit na history ng mga pasyente, progress notes at discharge summary pag-uwi nila. dito mo din makikita ang nakaka-awang kalagayan ng mga government hospitals at mga pasyenteng walang pera. sa time na ito din madalas nag-bebreak ang mga mag-bf/gf kasi busy sa duty at madaming nakikilalang mga bagong mukha (mga nurses, pasyente, kamag-anak ng pasyente, med tech, x-ray techinician, kapwa mga clerks galing sa ibang med schools, residents, maski consultants - notorius dyan noong time namin ang mga surgeons at anesthesiologists). sa time na ito din madalas na nakakapag-lakwatsa ka pagkatapos ng duty. pero don't get me wrong ha kasi hindi nangangahulugan na hindi ka na mag-aaral during this time kasi meron ding mga reporting, quizzes at rounds w/ your terror residents & consultants. pero magaan heto ang mga experiences na di ko malilimutan noong clerk pa ako...
UDMC - sumakit ang mga kamay ko sa kaka-push ng mga gamot sa swero ng mga pasyente. sumakit din ang mga paa ko dito sa kakalakad sa buong medical ward para kuhanan ng heart rate, respiratory rate at blood pressure ang mga pasyente, at bago ka pa matapos sa kabilang dulo eh kelangan na namang i-monitor yung mga pasyente sa isang dulo. dito ko din ako nahilo sa paggawa ng peritoneal dialysis (maglalagay ng solution sa loob ng tyan ng pasyente sa pamamagitan ng isang tube at after several hours, drain the solution para matanggal ang mga waste products sa loob ng katawan. una akong natuto dito kung paano maglagay ng intravenous fluid at catheter.
FEU Hospital - nakakahawak kami dito ng mga charity patients kaya dito ako mas nahasang maglagay ng IV fluid. madami ding reporting dito saka mga lectures at laging may nakabantay na resident para turuan kayo kung tama ba ang inyong ginagawa. dito din nangyari ang pinaka embarrassing experience ko sa clerkship - naglagay ako ng catheter sa isang 50+ na lalaking kidney patient! first time ko lang noon maglalagay ng catheter ng ako lang mag-isa at lalaki pa! nagtaka ako noon kung bakit nangingiti iyong nurse na nag-utos sa akin, huli na nang nalaman ko na naninigaw pala yung pasyente na yun kasi ayaw na ayaw niya na nilalagyan sya ng catheter pero wala syang choice kasi hindi sya maka-ihi. pero laking gulat ng bwisit na nurse na yon nang matapos ako at maghugas sa nurse's station, hindi nya akalaing tapos na ako kasi wala silang nadinig na sigaw. kaya ang ginawa ng bruhang nurse, pumunta sa kwarto ng pasyente at may i check sya ng gawa ko sabay kumusta sa pasyente, sabi naman ni manong, gentle daw kasi ako at sana daw ako na lang palagi ang maglagay ng catheter sa kanya. langhiya yon!
San Lazaro Hospital - hindi ko malilimutan dito yung time na may dinalang isang payat na payat na gusgusing babae at may mga puti-puti sa loob ng bibig dahil sa infection (sori po kung sobrang graphic), may AIDS pala. hindi ko alam kung ano ang kwento nya kasi bawal kaming maki-usi kapag ganito kaselan ang kaso. noong panahon namin, madami ding reklamo sa mga pasyente sa TB Pavillion kasi madami daw nanghihipo at naninilip dito, pano ba naman kasi sa tagal nila doon at sobrang dami nila, dala-dalawa na sa kama at yung iba, sa ilalim na ng kama nakahiga. na-bwisit din kami ng partner ko noon sa mga taga ibang school na kasama namin dito kasi wala nang ginawa kundi magpa-cute at manggulang sa trabaho! kainis! magtaka ka kasi palaging kami ng partner ko ang taga-kabit ng swero sa lahat ng mga pasyente sa Pavillion 2 kasi lagi silang nawawala. madami din dito nag-aaway kasi nag-aagawan ng partner para sa pagbili ng anti-rabies na bakuna, mas mura kasi dito.
Pasay City General Hospital - grabe dito! nandyan yung tumakbo ka sa loob ng quarters ninyo para magtago dahil sa may nagsasaksakan sa pinto mismo ng ospital. humanda ka din na mapagod sa kaka-examine buong araw ng mga taong nahuhili ng mga pulis bago sila dalhin sa presinto. ingat lang kasi madaming mga maniac sa kanila kaya dapat make sure na nandyan si PO1.
Jose Reyes Medical Center - nakaka-awa ang mga pasyente dito kasi yung iba, umuuwi na lang dahil sa walang pera pambili ng mga gamot. naisabak din ako dito sa sunod-sunod na pag-assist sa mga operasyon. ang dami kasing pasyente dito. pero ok lang kasi madaming cute na surgeons ha!
Posted by nikki:: 6/04/2005 05:29:00 PM
Friday, June 03, 2005the journey
marami sa atin, kapag nalaman na ikaw ay isang doktor, sasabihin kaagad "wow, ang galing naman". oo, siguro nga magaling. pero upang maging isang doktor, hindi lamang talino ang kailangan. sa dami ng dadaanan mong hirap, kailangan ikaw ay matiyaga at may determinasyon. importante din na marunong kang makisama sa tao. kung gusto ninyong malaman kung pano maging isang doktor, read on...
step 1: pre-med
ito ay isang kurso na kelangang kuhanin mo bago ka mag medicine proper. kahit anong kurso basta at least 4 years, pwede maging pre-med course. noon, may kaklase ako na b.a in english literature, ang layo no? pero syempre mas maganda kung science related ang course mo para mas madali saka para ma-credit lahat ng subjects mo kasi merong mga requirements din na subjects na dapat natapos mo bago ka mag-med proper. at kailangan din na pasado ka sa NMAT (national medical admission test). exception dito ang mga istudyante ng INTARMED sa UP-PGH kasi 2 years lang pinaka-equivalent ng pre-med nila. in my case, med tech ang pre-med course ko. naisip ko kasi, kapag di ako natuloy mag doktor, at least, sa ospital pa din ako magtatrabaho.
step 2: medicine proper
4 years itong medicine proper. ito na ang umpisa ng paghihirap. 3 years lang talaga ang classroom stay dito kasi yung pang 4th year, ang tawag namin doon ay clerkship. ganito ang mga usapang karaniwang nadidinig sa aming eskwelahan:
friend #1: grabe, nakatulog ako kagabi. lagot ako, may 2 shifting at
practical exams pa naman ako sa anatomy. kasi naman tinapos
ko muna i-transcribe yung lecture natin kahapon sa
friend #2: (grinning) ok lang yun noh, ako din hindi masyado naka-aral kasi tinapos
ko din i-transcribe yung lecture natin sa family medicine.
friend #3: hay naku, alam nyo ba na magka-away ang section B at E kasi nagdadamutan
sa mga transcription. kaya tayo, dapat wag tayo umasa sa kanila sa mga
friend #4: uy, baka makalimutan ninyo na may shifting din tayo saka quiz sa
(friends 1, 2 & 3: groans)
friend #2 (habang palakad-lakad sa corridor, nagbabasa ng photocopied notes sa
pharmacology): uy, anong lumabas kanina sa practical exam ninyo sa
friend #3 (dahil sa bumagsak sa anatomy, nalipat ng section): puro mga slides eh,
isa lang ang sigurado kong sagot, Entamoeba histolytica. kinukumusta ka
nga pala ni friend #1, nagkita kami sa jeep kahapon pag-uwi ko. na-kick
out pala sya, lumipat na sya sa ******.
friend #4 (nagbabasa din ng notes sa pedia): naku, natatakot na ako, baka ma-delay
din ako, ang hirap ng pediatrics eh.
friend #2: hindi! kaya natin ito!
friend #4: pasensya na ha, hindi ako makakasama sa lakwtsa mamaya. may shifting
exam kasi ako sa OB eh tapos may quiz ako sa surgery sa monday.
friend #2: oo nga eh, ako din nagdadalawang isip kung sasama. may 20 pages pa akong
babasahin sa chapter 74 ng Nelson (libro ng Pediatrics).
friend #3: ano ba kayo, friday naman ngayon. may practical exam pa nga ako sa
physical diagnosis bukas eh, hindi kasi dumating si dr. ******, may
pasyente daw kasi kanina.
Posted by nikki:: 6/03/2005 07:48:00 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
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Posted by nikki:: 6/02/2005 07:09:00 PM