Tuesday, June 27, 2006Senti Files #1
You promised me tonight that you will never leave me,
You promised that you will always be by my side and
will never let me go.
But just like the others, I know you will leave me too,
Someday you will, no matter how hard I try to hold on.
A greater power will snatch you away from my arms,
I will not have any choice but to let go.
You are not mine to keep and will never be.
I do not know how life will be when that happens,
I have to prepare and be ready.
Just like the others, I know someday you will have to leave.
But unlike them, I know you will keep a promise -
you will always be watching over me.
Posted by nikki:: 6/27/2006 12:09:00 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006Father's Day 2006
Father's day... masuwerte ako at napakabait ng Papa ko, karapat-dapat talagang ipagdiwang ang Father's Day in his honor. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako mabubuhay ng wala siya. Kasi naman, bata pa talaga ako, kami na ni Papa ang magkabuntot. Sa katunayan, nagkasugat pa nga ako sa talukap ng kaliwang mata ko sa kasusunod sa kanya. O sige na nga, oo na, Papa's girl na ako. Ang dami na din naming napagdaanan bilang isang pamilya, kung iba siguro ang naging tatay ko, baka sumuko na siya.
Kung meron akong nalaman sa pag-uwi namin noong May sa bayan ni Papa, iyon ay kung gaano kahirap ang naging buhay niya bago niya narating kung ano siya ngayon. Isa siyang mabuting anak at kapatid. Bata pa siya, marunong na siyang magtipid at magsikap para may ipambaon sa eskwelahan. Noong nagtapos siya sa kolehiyo at nagkatrabaho, inako na niya lahat halos ang pagpapa-aral dun sa dalawang nakababata niyang kapatid. Siya din ang sagot sa bahay, tubig, kuryente at pagkain. Sabi ng mga tita ko, kahit na hirap sila noon, isa iyon sa mga pinaka-masasayang taon nila. Sabi din nila, mabait ngunit istrikto daw si Papa, mahilig manlibre ng sine at maloko. Naintindihan ko na kung bakit nagsakripisyo siya ng husto para sa amin - ayaw niya kasi na maranasan namin yung naranasan niya noong bata pa siya. Hindi ko din nakita sa kanya yung pagka-istrikto niya. Siguro dahil sa madalas hindi namin siya kasama noon, kapag umuuwi siya dito sa Pilipinas, bumabawi siya. Maloko si Papa kahit hanggang ngayon. Maski si Tricia minsan naiinis, mahilig kasi mangulit si Papa.
Sa kwento ng mga tita ko, mas lalo kong nakilala si Papa. Bagama't may mga kamalian din siya, bale wala iyong mga iyon kung iisipin ko yung mga ginagawa niya para sa amin. Napakaswerte ko pala talaga!
for being the beam that lifts our family tall,
for being the wall that holds us together,
for being the roof that shelters us from the rain.
for being our eyes, which makes us see what is out there
for being our wings, which makes us fly high,
for being our heart, which taught us what love really is all about.
Thank you for being who you are!
Posted by nikki:: 6/19/2006 02:40:00 AM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006Gamehouse Addict
Would you believe that I slept at 6 am this morning? Since we're having problems with our internet connections, my online life for the past week has been very erratic. So, may I laro ako ng game (holiday po kasi dito kahapon), nasobrahan naman yata.
My good friend M gave me these 2 games kasi, hindi ko alam kung saan nya iyon nakuha or kung pano pero I got it thru email. Sobrang nakakatuwa! I saw it sa Yahoo Games and its from Gamehouse, it's called...
Try nyo, it's fun. But don't blame me if you get addicted too!
Posted by nikki:: 6/13/2006 11:20:00 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006Mood: pensive
I am happy that everything generally went well with our hospital activity except for some minor glitches. But yes, the last statement was written with some angst.
It is a given that we cannot please everybody and that we shouldn't even try. It's just that I'd like my life to be as peaceful and as stressless as possible. I don't want to have any room of hatred in my life. Gusto ko laging masaya ang paligid ko. I hate confrontations so I try to solve problems as diplomatically as possible. BUT no matter how hard I try, there are just things beyond my control.
For instance, I cannot help it if I click with this certain person that my other friend hates. Its not even my battle and I am not going to involve myself in it. I am not going to take sides because they are both my colleagues although I admit that it is immaturity (i.e. hospital politics) on my friend's part that caused all this. Pero hindi naman yata tama na simangutan niya ako at isnabin just because I am friends with the other person. Its just so sad that we are supposedly mature doctors who should at least try to be civil with one another even if in truth, you want to stab your colleague with a scalpel.
However, I am not going to deprive myself of a good friendship with a very misunderstood person just because of petty hospital politics. If this is how my friend treats all her friends who goes against her wishes, then maybe she doesn't deserve my friendship. If she cannot act maturely, then that's too bad. Hindi naman ako mawawalan kung hindi niya ako papansinin!
Posted by nikki:: 6/06/2006 05:50:00 PM