Thursday, August 11, 2005

I was bloghopping from Hooneypooh and while I was reading the comments on her post, I came upon this exchange between her and someone named Goyong. Apparently, Goyong posted something for his son who died. Through his comment, his pain touched my heart so I went to see his blog and got to read his story...

Goyong,

I am so sorry about your son. I don't have any kids but I feel your pain. Being a pediatrician, I have been exposed to lots of similar scenarios. When I was in training, we lost 2 dengue patients, a 15 year old boy and a 4 year old girl. As much as we want to save all of the little ones entrusted to our care, there are times when we just can't no matter how hard we try. Your son was not just another record to be pulled out permanently from our files, he is one little boy we will never see again gain another kilo or grow another inch and that gives us as much pain as you.

"...Imagine ang healthy ng bata kong iyan Linggo dalhin namin sa ospital ang lakas lakas laro pa nga ng laro 4 days inuwi namin........."

Dengue is really a traitor. There is a very thin line between recovery and deterioration; we can only sigh with relief after we have already sent the patient home because everything can happen so fast. Sometimes it is even out of our hands like when that is the second episode already of dengue because this episode will be worse than the one before. (there are four strains of dengue and one can get infected with the four so you can just imagine how hard it is to treat the fourth episode). I do not know what transpired in the hospital nor the circumstances behind your son's death, what I do know is that your doctor didn't want to loose or even intentionally lost him but we are not gods. We are only here as His instruments to try and save your son but in the end, it is still God's decision to make.

I know no matter what I say, I can never ease your pain but I hope I can help pave the way towards forgiveness. Wherever your son is now, I am sure he is smiling down on you. And if I was your son, I would not like to see you still harboring ill feelings towards my doctor for after all, I have wings now and is in a better place.



**This was supposed to be posted as a comment in Goyong's blog but I opted to make it as a post here since it is obviously very long.